I had a mini freak out tonight. It was one of those ones where I'm pittering along through my life just fine when all the sudden I question my existence, goals, dreams, character, and pretty much EVERY thing else. I usually start shaking and BADLY desire human contact. But the RIGHT human. Who that human is on a particular day changes, but often its a long term friend I feel comfortable being in any mood with who I probably haven't seen in a while.
My response tonight instead of finding this friend...since it was late, I didn't feel intruding upon a friend at 11:30 pm would be kind, and few ideas seemed to settle into a good idea, was to stay up an additional five hours scrapbooking. My scrapbooking is a little rudamentary, crude even, but it gets some pics in a book where I can appreciate them. I have grandiose ideas that once they're all together in some sort of organized, finished form, the eclectic method I used to create the collection will be charming. Only time will tell. It's entirely possible my caveman-personal-picture-history will just read as tacky, but I'm fairly far away from knowing. It won't be some time until my entire life of photographs is mapped out cohesively. I digress.
But as I came down from my existentialist trip, a lot of the questions which always plague me in my convulsion-riddled highs still lingered. In a more manageable form after the most chaotic stage of the episodes, but regardless...lingering. I imagine I'm the type of person (as in human) that will always have questions. It seems like both a blessing and a curse that I'll be 80 still living with dreams and constantly questioning if I'm on the right path. On one hand I wouldn't necessarily choose to be any other way. I ponder the existence of a human who wonders something, finds a logical answer, accepts it, and never questions that knowledge again. It seems to have its own sort of novelty, but frankly would never truly suit me. I'm far too precarious and precocious for that sort of thing I think. Not that I mean to flatter or self-deprecate my...self.
So now, I lay awake pondering the topics I so long have and for so long will, but I find some comfort in expressing that this uncertainty exists. By the tone of my post as I skim back through it probably seems religious in nature to many of you. While this is part of it, suffice it to say that there is so much more than just that. For effectiveness I think it best I table some topics and start my analysis through them one by one. I think I'll continue to post about certain aspects of these questions and your thoughts will be appreciated through the process. Until then, thank you and good night.
My response tonight instead of finding this friend...since it was late, I didn't feel intruding upon a friend at 11:30 pm would be kind, and few ideas seemed to settle into a good idea, was to stay up an additional five hours scrapbooking. My scrapbooking is a little rudamentary, crude even, but it gets some pics in a book where I can appreciate them. I have grandiose ideas that once they're all together in some sort of organized, finished form, the eclectic method I used to create the collection will be charming. Only time will tell. It's entirely possible my caveman-personal-picture-history will just read as tacky, but I'm fairly far away from knowing. It won't be some time until my entire life of photographs is mapped out cohesively. I digress.
But as I came down from my existentialist trip, a lot of the questions which always plague me in my convulsion-riddled highs still lingered. In a more manageable form after the most chaotic stage of the episodes, but regardless...lingering. I imagine I'm the type of person (as in human) that will always have questions. It seems like both a blessing and a curse that I'll be 80 still living with dreams and constantly questioning if I'm on the right path. On one hand I wouldn't necessarily choose to be any other way. I ponder the existence of a human who wonders something, finds a logical answer, accepts it, and never questions that knowledge again. It seems to have its own sort of novelty, but frankly would never truly suit me. I'm far too precarious and precocious for that sort of thing I think. Not that I mean to flatter or self-deprecate my...self.
So now, I lay awake pondering the topics I so long have and for so long will, but I find some comfort in expressing that this uncertainty exists. By the tone of my post as I skim back through it probably seems religious in nature to many of you. While this is part of it, suffice it to say that there is so much more than just that. For effectiveness I think it best I table some topics and start my analysis through them one by one. I think I'll continue to post about certain aspects of these questions and your thoughts will be appreciated through the process. Until then, thank you and good night.
Memoirs of a Food Network Addict: Confession 2
Today's Topic: The NEXT Food Network Star
All right. Normally I don't like to send such negativity into the universe as talking about things I HATE, but this season's got me GOING. They have upped the stakes in drama and "reality TVness" of it all, and I'll admit I'm buying it! So here's my take on Season 7 of the future of my favorite network.
GET RID OF 'EM!:
This is Alicia. She's from Missourri, but she has the most bizarre voice I've ever seen/heard. I say seen because look at that mouth. She holds tons of tension in her jaw and she uses her lips in the MOST bizarre way. I hate it. She's also crying and blubbering all the time which is my FAVORITE thing in a professional setting. Get it together, homegirl. FINALLY she was cut...I was so over her lasting as long as she did.
And HERE we have Chris. I do not know what is wrong with homeboy, but he is like a fake-gangster frat boy meathead that does NOT know what he's doing when it comes to cooking. They continuously say his food is gross and he is always doing stupid things! He makes himself look like an idiot. Can't wait 'til he's gone. It won't be long.
ON THE FENCE ABOUT 'EM:
Now there's one contestant I THINK I don't like, but sometimes I REALLY like. Her name is Penny. She cooks Middle Eastern and while they always say her food is great, she has got some competition issues. But at the same time, haha, she is REALLY entertaining to watch as she openly strategizes viciously and tries to knock people out. She's a freaking cobra. So while I probably wouldn't watch her ON the Food Network (making her a bad choice to win), for the purposes of the show of The Next Food Network Star...I'm entertained.
LOVE 'EM:
And then there's Jeff. *Happy sigh This guy is a big, funny, happy-go-lucky Italian-American that is pushing a concept of every food he makes a sandwich. A) We know how I feel about adorable ESTPs. B) SANDWICHES for everything?! It's AWESOME! But not only is he really likeable, they seem to like his food again and again, so I trust that he knows what he's doing. Mini crush!
So...Jeff is probably my favorite of anybody. But I really like this guy too. Justin is a sweet, dorky, nice guy that also makes really good food. He wears funny little bowties and makes whimsical food...kind of if Alton Brown and James Popin had a baby. He's not really a mini-crush for me like Jeff is, but is definitely a guy I would be friends with. Ha he's like a lot of my friends actually. I like that.
PROBABLE WINNER:
My money though is on Orchid winning. I'm actually not crazy about her...I think she's adorable and cute and there really is nothing to DISlike about her, I just feel like I've seen this chef before. "Bubbly chubby girl that makes unique food"...wait, Aarti?! Is that YOU? haha I have no qualms with this probable winner, but I just LOVE me some Jeff and Justin.
All right. Normally I don't like to send such negativity into the universe as talking about things I HATE, but this season's got me GOING. They have upped the stakes in drama and "reality TVness" of it all, and I'll admit I'm buying it! So here's my take on Season 7 of the future of my favorite network.
GET RID OF 'EM!:
This is Alicia. She's from Missourri, but she has the most bizarre voice I've ever seen/heard. I say seen because look at that mouth. She holds tons of tension in her jaw and she uses her lips in the MOST bizarre way. I hate it. She's also crying and blubbering all the time which is my FAVORITE thing in a professional setting. Get it together, homegirl. FINALLY she was cut...I was so over her lasting as long as she did.
And HERE we have Chris. I do not know what is wrong with homeboy, but he is like a fake-gangster frat boy meathead that does NOT know what he's doing when it comes to cooking. They continuously say his food is gross and he is always doing stupid things! He makes himself look like an idiot. Can't wait 'til he's gone. It won't be long.
ON THE FENCE ABOUT 'EM:
Now there's one contestant I THINK I don't like, but sometimes I REALLY like. Her name is Penny. She cooks Middle Eastern and while they always say her food is great, she has got some competition issues. But at the same time, haha, she is REALLY entertaining to watch as she openly strategizes viciously and tries to knock people out. She's a freaking cobra. So while I probably wouldn't watch her ON the Food Network (making her a bad choice to win), for the purposes of the show of The Next Food Network Star...I'm entertained.
LOVE 'EM:
And then there's Jeff. *Happy sigh This guy is a big, funny, happy-go-lucky Italian-American that is pushing a concept of every food he makes a sandwich. A) We know how I feel about adorable ESTPs. B) SANDWICHES for everything?! It's AWESOME! But not only is he really likeable, they seem to like his food again and again, so I trust that he knows what he's doing. Mini crush!
So...Jeff is probably my favorite of anybody. But I really like this guy too. Justin is a sweet, dorky, nice guy that also makes really good food. He wears funny little bowties and makes whimsical food...kind of if Alton Brown and James Popin had a baby. He's not really a mini-crush for me like Jeff is, but is definitely a guy I would be friends with. Ha he's like a lot of my friends actually. I like that.
PROBABLE WINNER:
My money though is on Orchid winning. I'm actually not crazy about her...I think she's adorable and cute and there really is nothing to DISlike about her, I just feel like I've seen this chef before. "Bubbly chubby girl that makes unique food"...wait, Aarti?! Is that YOU? haha I have no qualms with this probable winner, but I just LOVE me some Jeff and Justin.
